January 14, 2021
LaityTennessee Valley District
Psalm 139: 17-18
17How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.
Sometimes I wonder why God even considers me at all. I make mistake after mistake, constantly calling on His forgiveness, patience, and understanding. I allow my anxiety to take over and fear to pervade my soul, even as I am praying for relief, trust, hope, and faith. I am always looking for the next rock to fall, when I know I should be reveling in the beauty around me and the wonderful gifts God has blessed me with every moment of the day.
I am human, however, and I am so thankful that God – who made me and knows me – understands my failings. I know He considers me and considers my problems when I come to Him in prayer, even when I get so involved in myself that I forget to turn to Him right away. Inevitably, God is the one who helps me through tough times and promises me He will stay close even when I feel alone.
When I am able to vacation at my favorite getaway – Sanibel Island on the Gulf in Florida – I sit on the beach or my balcony and marvel at the grains of sand and drops of water, each one placed so lovingly and carefully by our Father. To think that God considers me more than the number of the grains of sand is beyond my comprehension, but it offers great comfort once I allow my mind and soul to settle down enough to remember it.
Father God, forgive me my failings and help me to remember that You hold me in your mighty yet gentle hand on the best and the worst days. You, Lord, are all I want and need. Amen.